i had already made up my mind.. i decided not to apply for the position.
dan and i had a talk about it, at first he doesn't want me to stay up until march but its okay for him to wait for me but then i can sense that he is really not sure about it. instead, i know he just wants me to be happy.
While i was in deep thought, he has a point, we have waited for so long already and extending up until march is bearable but we choose not to prolong our agony.
So Monday night, i had a talk with my supervisor and i told him that im not pursuing the application anymore. It was a deep conversation and relaxing, and for a moment, i know i made the right decision.